November 2, 1958

Last night, I thought, 'My god! If I have to...' Individually, with this one or that one, by selecting the best, I could get somewhere, but this... this mass.^{1Mother is referring to the Ashram as a collectivity.} Swami had told me so—he told me immediately after his first meditation (collective meditation at the Ashram playground), he told me, 'The stuff is not good!' (Mother laughs)

I didn't press the matter.

All this together constitutes one collective entity, and the individual is lost in it. If I had to deal with this person or that person individually, it would be different. But all together, taking them all together as a collective entity, well, it's not brilliant.